it's cold, it's dark, it's cursed...


It all starts without warning, a loved one or trusted authority thrusts a sharp dagger slicing deep into the child's innocent heart shattering its safe world of love with betrayal. A reflex pulls the heart away as the first painful emotion brings a fear of death and insecurity. Stunned in disbelief the child's mind scrambles to make sense of the puncture the heart has just sustained. Confused and unable to comprehend the assault, the child accepts full responsibility. Year after year the pattern continues, as trust becomes a distant memory.

Deep within solitude and far from discovery the mirror of the buried heart reflects failure and loneliness. The mind caught off guard responds with a legion of proof the inner voice is a lie. As time passes and silent to all others, the heart's once small whisper increases to a scream the mind can not suppress. Plunging into a darkness of conviction and despair a knowing of the failure permeates the body. Shocked by the inner betrayal, a rage is created that will not relent. Over and over you seek for the one to blame, but none can be found. Through desperate fear the mind has the solution. You are the one to blame.

The now silent heart slowly dies unaware of its gradual fate as despair trickles into the cold voids where the dream once lived. Day after day the darkness kills thoughts before they transform into action bringing a paralysis to life. Moving deeper and deeper into hopelessness, the childhood dream no longer exists. Replaced with a cold hatred that the song of lies was ever heard. Death is the only escape and love is a lie.

they are just waiting for me to die...


Entries for December, 2003

December 2, 2003
Nothing
Posted at 03:05 AM

i don't feel like posting.. so i won't bother telling every bit.. coz this day's crappy...

but i made an oath that i'll post at least once per day..and never miss a day without posting

so.. like the title said.. it's just nothing

hm at least hon had some fun... that's the only consolation for me i guess...

so till the next post..

Take Care All.

i love you elena..






December 4, 2003
Standing up on every fall...
Posted at 01:42 AM

hm due to the fact that tabulas was down yesterday.. early morning to be exact, i missed a day.. and earlier when i got home.. it's already quarter to 12.. not enough to make a post.. oh well

it's alright though.. nothing special happened yesterday.. but i'm glad little by little everything's getting back to normal..

hm.. today.. same sched.. left school at 1 though.. coz gonna meet Hon...

got home.. changed clothes etc.. then looked for my mags and the xeno boss walkthrough...

left home at around 3 unfortunately... and.. due for some unknown reasons... dami atang nililibing ngayon so the traffic's heavy...

reached our meeting place after some time.. hon's already there... gomen to keep you waiting

reached benson's place at around 4 i think.. and i thought jay(naku_go) was there.. but unfortunately he isn't..

we played xenogears.. helped benson on his file... hehe malayo din narating namin and to think it's been a year or so since i finished that game...

hehe playing while with the one you love.. of course that's hon! hehe isn't that sweet...

after a short while... leo was there and so was adz..

after we realized we're hungry... we went to the store to buy some food.. was supposed to buy a rice and some ulam kaso it's so dang expensive! so instead.. hon bought some bread and cakes and i bought 2 burgers for myself.. she bought some nuts too...

then back at benson's place, we realized.. walang tubig! so we bought some coke.. eat galore!

after that... we went to leo's place w/c was on the front of benson's house.. and we all talked bout cool stuffs.. from history to family computer(nes) video games.. then to the best mario game of all! Mario 3.

hm then.. it's already 11.. aww.. bilis ng oras

bat kaya kelan nageenjoy ka and you're really living your life to the fullest.. saka mabilis ang oras.. pag gusto mo sana man lang at least bumagal ang oras.. kung pwede nga lang tumigil muna sandali.. saka mabilis..

oh well.. there's always a next time..

and besides.. being with hon is enough for me... kahit ilang oras lang na makasama ko sya.. kumpleto na araw ko

and for my punishment from hon.. i already received it... all i can say is.. it's not enough though

so after that... sabay sabay kami nila adz, jay, hon at ako papuntang bridge.. sila tatawid ako sa ilalim naman...

reached home at about 11:30 i think.. went online..found out they're on adz' place looking at the eb pics.. later they left there..

txt'ed hon a couple of times... using chikka of course... wala na ako load

and now out of boredom.. i bloghopped and posted earlier... to compensate the day i missed...

rants.. hm i feeling better compare to the past 2 days.. got back to my normal self... but unfortunately.. i still have some colds.. the weather's cold!

miss ko na hon ko...

i may be childish...

i may be stupid..

i may be moody...

but everytime i fall... i will stand up...

for the one i love...

because even though i'm not perfect...

i feel i am whenever you love me..

Domo Arigato Elena...Aishiteiru


music comes from the Opening theme of the 2nd series of Yugioh


Cloud's voice






December 5, 2003
Down
Posted at 02:36 AM

like the day before.. i don't feel like posting...

and the day's the same.. don't ask anything else..
...

I Love You Elena...

gomen ne







December 6, 2003
A Journey..
Posted at 05:09 AM

surprise
You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p


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hm won't bother posting everything here.. it's kinda the same.. though

i feel a little better compare yesterday.. must be the week...

i hope my next week turns out better

hm oh yeah...

Happy monthsary Elena... I love you..

my life may be a hard journey but whenever i'm with you.. it's all worth it...thanks for coming in to my life...








December 7, 2003
Lost in Space
Posted at 03:45 AM

err i'm too tired and sleepy to post everything here.. but i'll try...

was supposed to meet hon at ceu at 12 but for some reasons.. it was posponed to 2...

got there by 2:30, due to the heavy traffic.. gomen ne hon...

got to mega at around 4 or 5pm... hehe the usual eb stuffs...

she left at around 8 coz she's going to the province again.. her aunt's wedding...

after ko sya ihatid went back to mega.. and the usual things.. listened to my anime cds...

the waa and weare guys were hillarious as usual...

then some of us went to benson's place.. they have some drinking session and the rest of us talked bout some things.. hehe fun as ever

left there at around 2 am and got here a few mins later... malapit lng bahay nya dito

then now i'm talking to hon via txt.. hehe la lang

i really miss her badly..

no rants.. i'm too tired...

I Love You Elena...


LightHouse Family's Lost in Space






December 8, 2003
Full Moon
Posted at 03:59 AM

nothing much happened today...nothing bad happened either, it could been better if she was here though...

woke up at 3 pm... overslept as usual...

hm later went online for a while then went to some place to get some errands... later met up w/ adz, dawn, jiji and louanne at policarpio for the yearly policarpio fair or whatever you may call it...

later went to benson's place.. watched some dna² episodes, momonari junta's hair looks cool.. i really like spiky hairs....and his hair reminds me of a super saiyan gokou.. w00t..lol

hm he kinda reminds me of..myself.. his normal side.. not the playboy side.. the usual weak, crybaby, unpopular type of guy

and now i'm addicted to dna²! i need to borrow it!

then they played some xeno...then after that went home afterwards...

i could stay but.. i still have a class later... oh well

hm during the whole day, i talked to hon thru txt as usual.. hm but still.. i don't have a load... and now.. chikka's down.. tch..

Take care all and thanks for visiting, commenting and tagging..

i still miss her...

I Love You Elena

music comes from the opening theme of dna²



Momonari Junta (from dna²)
L Arc En Ciel's Blurry Eyes






December 9, 2003
Ordinary day...sort of
Posted at 12:35 AM

nothing much happened today...

woke up somewhat early, txt hon saying i'm sorry i didn't txt her coz chikka's down, slept for a short while, woke up for school.. nothing much happened there either.. just to found out that prelims is on thursday and friday.. nice.

got home by 4, hon txt'ed me and i replied.. we talk bout.. personal stuffs.. i'm glad she's having fun at the wedding of her aunt..

went online afterwards.. was too lazy to do anything and i'm kinda bored...

then dalnet has done it again.. luckily i wasn't affected...

later lil sis went online and we talk bout some things.. she's still online though...

hm during the whole day i'm talking to hon via txt.. hehe

i'm glad my mood's light today.. no rants or anything

i'm still addicted to dna² though

i miss her...

i love you elena...








December 10, 2003
Slumber
Posted at 02:43 AM

hm.. another somewhat ordinary day...

woke up early coz of hon's txt.. went online to txt in chikka and to look at ym and mirc.. but she's isn't there..

went back to sleep, woke up later for school..

hm same usual stuffs...

got home by 3.. fell asleep.. for some reasons.. i feel tired and sleepy..

woke up at 4:30 for astroboy and Yugioh...

hon txt'ed me saying she's going at te recy's cafe...

went online at the usual time.. talked to hon.. but she's kinda busy.. she's playing wro i think...

later.. went offline for a while.. and burn some cds.. and went back after some time.. she's still there.. hehe

personal talk etc.. teehee...

she left at around 10 i guess...

and as for me.. i dl'ed some pics.. mainly ai yori aoshi...

she got home later.. and went online at around 1.. we're still talking right now...

hm.. can't say anything...even though this day's kinda... strange..

oh yeah...

thanks to those who greeted us...

and..

Welcome back Hon, i'm glad you're back!

I love you Elena...

oh yeah.. the pic is for hon.. hehe isn't it obvious why? it's a Fuuko and Raiha pic..







December 11, 2003
I dunno what to say...
Posted at 12:53 AM

hm.. i need to review for my prelims.. plus i'm kinda tired and sleepy so i gonna make this short as soon as possible...

woke up at 8 for school, got home at around 1, then havta get my nephew from school coz dad's going somewhere...

then met hon at the usual place at 3:30...

after bringing my nephew home, went to benson's place.. there.. the usual talk etc...

later leo went there and so is jiji(naku_go)

hm played some ps... and usual food trip...

we left there at around 12:15am, bid farewell to hon...

and now i'm here.. gotta review... even though there are lots of things on my mind... nice timing...

observing can be a hazardous thing...

i bid all of you.. farewall for now

I Love You Elena...







December 12, 2003
Overload
Posted at 03:56 AM

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gonna summarize it.. i'm too tired to type it all

woke up around 8, left for school, the test was.. ok.. got home by 3, but dad dragged me to the comelec validation thingy...

got home at around 5:30, the inet's down, so i slept for a while... woke up at around 7:30, hon txt'ed me.. went online afterwards while eating and reviewing

hm talked to hon bout something.. gomen ne for my mood.. must be tired..

and.. eck.. analytic geom! eck.. i really dislike math..

now my brain's on overload...

no rants.. brain's dead..

I Love You Elena!




Chipmunks's 12 Days of Christmas






December 13, 2003
Anything New!
Posted at 03:51 AM

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hm.. let's see now..

woke up at the usual time.. went to school.. somewhat survived the remaining test..especially analytic geom.. eck

got home somewhat early.. coz of the test.. hon txt'ed me.. she didn't go to school and she's sick get well soon po...

went online at the usual time... hon went online for a short time.. coz she's going to a friend's party...

and while she's away.. i managed to change my layout.. temporarily w/ the help of Lea. thanks so much anakz

hm hon txt'ed me after a short while.. she's home.. and later she went online.. we talked bout some things.. that make me.. proud of her.. teehee.. i'm really lucky i have her, and i won't let her go.. come what may...

as usual her pc's acting stupid again... and i somewhat finished fixing this layout although there are some still needed to be fix.. like the tagboard... and other things.. i'll try to do it later though so.. sorry for the inconvenience..

oh yeah... what a coincidence.. i have a new layout.. at exactly my 4th month of stay in tabulas.. happy 4th month blogging to me!

it's my mom's bday today.. we may go to mega later... i'll buy something for myself.. happy bday mom! kahit di mo nababasa to, teehee, try ko lang dumaan ng c3/eb though.. sunday pa ako punta .

no rants today... hm i feel somewhat better compare to the past few days..

there are reasons to be happy... and it's all because of hon...

i love you Elena!

music comes from the 2nd opening theme of the 2nd season of Yugioh




Okui Masami's Shuffle






December 14, 2003
Edited
Posted at 04:16 AM

too tired and sleepy to post.. gonna edit this later..






December 16, 2003
A Priceless Moment
Posted at 06:15 AM

hm.. i missed a post yesterday... and my last post's lame.. oh well

let's see...

Sunday

woke up around 10, got to our usual meeting place at 1, received a txt from hon saying she'll be late.. and later she said that i should go first..

since i sensed something, bought some load for my cell so that i can txt her.. and yada yada yada, in the end i went up going to mega alone.. thought about this and about that..lol senseless stuffs...

reached mega at around 3pm, saw some #waa and #weareanime peeps, mostly cosplayers...

later hon txt'ed me again saying she'll try to come later...

i didn't bothered entering c3, what's the use when hon's not there? di rin ako mag-eenjoy

so i went somewhere.. where my feet can drag me... then i went to encore... hm saw a guy who uses Zero in Snk vs Capcom Chaos... cool...

then later hon arrived at encore at around 6... she apologized and told me that her mom didn't allowed her to leave early... yada yada... it's ok.. don't worry bout it

then we went to c3... saw some peeps.. then we went to the foodcourt.. hehe funny, coz a little boy's keep smiling and blushing at hon... ehehe she sure has her appeal even to kids..

after eating.. we went back to c3... waited for the #waa and #weareanime peeps.. after that we all went to the foodcourt.. and later at benson's place... overnight stay! weeee~

the usual peeps.. ojie, ron, jiro etc... usual drinking session... i didn't drink coz i don't want to.. and besides.. i'm supposed to have a class.. and hon didn't drink too.. coz we don't want to

during those times we watched some prince of tennis eps.. now i'm addicted to it Oo;

after they left... we played some card games.. ahahah it's been a long time since i played those games.. and i really suck at playing it...

later.. played some ps... and ate some breakfast...

Monday

we slept at around...8am? it's all worth it though coz.. she's in my arms.. like the title said.. a priceless moment..

woke up a couple of hours later... coz adz was there! w0ah..lol

we watched some pot eps again.. and as usual.. me and hon... wehehhe Hi-Mit-Su!

we went to makati later to eat, went to this place.. the food's good and it's cheap!

then went to Adz' place.. there he created this awesome layout.. w0w he's really great.. thanks a million!

and later he did hon's layout too.. hehe it's cute.. just like my hon

now i got my yugi layout.. and hon has her tea/anzu layout.. sugoi desu ne!

then after that... hinatid ko sila sa sakayan, dapat ihahatid ko sya, but as usual she insisted na wag na...

reached home at around 8, ate some dinner, txt'ed hon and later she went online..

was supposed to wait for her.. but for some reasons i feel sleepy and dizzy.. so i slept for a while...

but unfortunately... and due to my stupidity... I OVERSLEPT!

was supposed to wake up at 1.. and i woke at around 4:30am...

i missed her.. and simbang gabi...

read my txt'ed and she said sorry she didn't wait for me.. i understand.. she still has her class later.. and so do i

hm now i'm writing this... and talking to deacs, tj and some other peeps at #waa and #weareanime...

rants.. hm... hounto ni akito no baka...

Take Care all! and thanks for visiting my blog...

I Love You Elena!



Giorgio Moroder's Together in Electric Dreams






December 18, 2003
My 100th Post! :-D
Posted at 12:33 AM

hehe i missed another day.. my bad..

hm ok i'll try to tell it all here, although i'll try to make it short and small.. i'm kinda tired and sleepy...

Tuesday

woke up early.. at about 4:30 am and i ddin't sleep again since...

went to school.. yada yada..

then went to our usual meeting place.. gonna meet her...

i arrived there at about 3, she arrived at almost four... lol

we passed Julie's house, gave her the cd's she needed...

then went to Christen's place to get the sketch and the way on how to be there...

then finally to te recy's cafe... the place's schooll, the pc's fine and the people...

was supoosed to sleep early but for some reason we didn't...stayed overnight.. weee

Wednesday

after sleeping a short while, went to buy her clothes...

then after waking up, saw the people chatting/playing there... and other stuffs..

then later.. deacs, nico, and benj appeared...

we left that place at around 9 pm, got her to our usual meeting place there... and i arrived at home at around 9:30am...

now i'm just waiting for hon.. although i'm kinda sleepy...

rants.. hm too sleepy.. maybe next time...

the past 2 day's.. awesome... weee

I Love You Elena








December 18, 2003
Serbey na gawa ni Adz :P
Posted at 06:06 PM

1.ano ang buong pangalan mo?
pag malaman nila na alam mo, ika'y mananagot sa batas.. wahahaha

2.kailan kaarawan mo?
10/16

3.ano ang gusto mong kotse?
kahit ano basta may 4 na gulong

4.ano ang gusto mong uri ng musika?
basta may kinalaman sa anime

5.ikaw ba ay maligaya?
tanong mo kay hon

6.ano ang gusto mong kainin kapag malungkot ka?
kahit ano basta masarap

7.may katipan ka na ba?
si hon

8.ano ang paboritong numero mo?
16

9.ano ang numero ng telepono mo?
tanong mo sa pldt...(wala kami landline eh )

10.saan ka pinanganak?
sa hospital

11.ano ang mga amoy na gusto mo?
amoy ng aking hon... nakakainlove

12.ano ang paboritong salita mo sa tagalog?
tagalog

13.ikaw ba ay masaya sa iyong paaralan?
di ko alam...

14.ano ang paboritong pagkain sa kalye?
fishball, barbeque

15.masaya ba itong sarbey na to?
tanong mo kay serbey

16.naiintindihan mo ba?
oo naman, pera lang kung di ka makaintindi ng tagalog

17.sino crush mo?
si hon

18.ako ba?
at sino ka naman?

19.baket hinde?
kapal mo kasi eh

20.pangit ba ako?
ikaw nagsabi nyan...

21.ano ang gusto mo maging paglake mo?
gusto kong magpunta sa buwan! sakay ng spessyip na paliparin~

22.mahilig ka ba sa pagkaing pilipino?
basta masarap eh

23.nakapagnakaw ka na ba sa isang tindahan?
di ko namalayan

24.ano ang mga ginagawa mo tuwing sabado?
punta mega, mata-bola(eyeball)

25.ano ang paborito mong ginagawa kapag mag-isa ka?
nood tv, anime vcd, laro video games

26.na laseng ka na ba ng todo-todo?
hindi pa

27.kung ikaw ay isang hayop ano ka?
tao.. kasi ang tao ay kasama rin sa kaharian ng mga hayop(animal kingdom)

28.gusto mo bang sumayaw?
A-YO-KO

29.baket maliit si Gloria?
kasi di sya malaki

30.naniniwala ka ba kay santa klaws?
kung bigyan nya ako ng ps2










December 19, 2003
Nande?
Posted at 02:08 AM

another ordinary day....

i slept at around 6, and guessed what? i skipped school.. coz i woke up at around 3.. and.. i can't walk properly... my right heel hurts badly

i dunno where i get this, it was ok in the morning..

went online at around 3.. coz ate's going w/ mom somewhere.. and dad's w/ my younger bro..so i'm basically home alone that time..

then the usual things.. bloghopped etc.. was kinda bored..

watched tv, and park at the chatroom whole day...

hm now i'm waiting for hon..

speaking of which, we didn't talked much this day.. she only txt'ed me in the evening.. for some reasons

come to think of it.. this is not the first time we haven't talked that much.. hm but i wonder why i feel this way?

its obvious isn't it?

i miss her badly...

i guess..di lang ako sanay...

hehe no reason to be sad afterall.. at least i heard something from her...

oh yeah...

sa mga taong walang magawa kundi guluhin si Elena... pwede ba lubayan nyo na sya? she's happily in love w/ me.. and maghanap nalang kayo ng iba? ayokong nahihirapan mahal ko.. di ba kayo nakokonsensya? ok lang sana kung ako pero kung sya.. wag na lang..

kung sino man kayo...
i won't let you do anything bad to her... you have to face me first...

and oh yeah.. we'll never leave each other... i'll die first before that happens...

I Love You Elena...

..i miss you badly







December 20, 2003
Kowai..desu
Posted at 03:19 AM

nothing much to post for this day...

woke up at around 3, txt'ed hon...

played some ps and went online..

and waited for hon.. she went online later...

very simple...

i feel... powerless when hon's sad... i hate it...

i love you elena...








December 21, 2003
Taken for granted...
Posted at 04:43 AM

this day's... somewhat interesting... i'll just summarize it...

woke up at 7 to prepare for my tita's wedding.. left home at 9.. got there at 10

the church's cool.. it's fully airconditioned

hm the wedding went fine.. and the songs... pure mushy stuffs...

got to the reception place after that..

during all those times.. i txt'ed hon.. but i guess she's still sleeping...

afterwards.. got home at around 2:30, talked to adz online... later went to his place.. and leo's... and we all went to mega...

hm for some weird reasons.. daming tao sa eb! and maaga pa sila!

hm the eb's ok.. i was kinda bored though.. coz maybe hon's not there?

went home early at 8... after reaching home... txt'ed hon again.. but she didn't replied back.. strange..

then i burned some cds.. fell asleep while burning, teehee

went back online at 12.. waited for her.. she went online at 1.. and we talked bout some things...

now i'm waiting for her..

rant..hm too many to say...

i'm just a nobody...

Take Care all..

I love you Elena...








December 22, 2003
Plain and Simple
Posted at 04:25 AM

hm this day's like the title.. plain and simple

woke up at around 3, txt'ed hon... and later.. i was somehow home alone.. kinda

mom's at the room and i'm here.. so basically.. hehe

i logged on to irc for a while.. then i burned tons of cds... lol 20 to be exact... copied some cds i borrowed...

but it took me about 3-4 hours...

went back online at 8... saw the usual people..

and on the whole day.. i was talking to my hon thru txt.. and oh yeah.. gomen ne to the other people.. la pa rin akong load, i'm just borrowing my mom/ate's cell

hon went online the usual time.. we talked bout.. some things.. hm... it's what they call bonding i guess...

and she logged off for the meantime.. i'm still waiting for her

rants.. hm.. i somewhat envy some people... not that kind of envy.. i'm happy on what i am and what i got.. i envy them coz.. someone cares that deeply on them.. what if i was in their position.. would someone do the same?

lol sorry bout that.. sorry hon.. i'm not making any sense...

but still.. like i said.. i'm happy on what i am right now.. and what i got.. and that is of course... elena.. my hon..

so.. i'll better end this post..lol

thanks to the people who posted at the comments, those who tagged and those who wasted a little of their time to visit and read my post... thanks from the bottom of my heart

and oh yeah... i heard this song on my tita's wedding.. i can relate to it... so here's the lyrics...

i dedicate this to her of course...

I love you so much Elena...

FOREVERMORE
Side A
(Joey Benin)


There are times when I just want to look at your face
With the stars in the night
There are times when I just want to feel your embrace
In the cold night
I just can't believe that you are mine now

You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore

All those years I've longed to hold you in my arms
I've been dreaming of you
Every night I've been watching all the stars that fall down
Wishing you will be mine now
I just can't believe that you are mine now

You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore

Time and again there are these changes
That we cannot end
As sure as time keeps going on and on
My love for you will be forevermore

I just can't believe that you are mine now

You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with anything in this world

As endless as forever
Our love will stay together
You are all I need to be with forevermore

As endless as forever(forever)
Our love will stay together(together)
You are all I need to be with forevermore




Side A's Forevermore






December 23, 2003
Slowly but surely...
Posted at 04:57 AM

this day's like yesterday.. somewhat plain and simple.. but still.. at least i feel a whole lot better...

woke up at 3, txt'ed on telling her i'm awake.. she didn't replied until an hour later..hehe

went online afterwards...just parked on waa.. coz.. i'm addicted to AdvancedAnime hehe all thanks to siobe cherry

it's about pics..

then the whole time i just wonder around that site

hon went online the usual time.. we talked bout some personal things.. hehe i'm glad on the things i found out.. now i'm preatty sure that i'm really lucky to have her...

now we're still talking, doing our own things.. but.. i'm sure.. that we'll stay together... even forever if possible..

rants.. hm i'm too light to rant today...

i'm happy to have her in my life...now i feel perfect and complete because of her.. she's my missing piece...

i won't let her go.. and i won't leave her...

Take Care All!

I Love You Kirei Elena-hime-sama..








December 24, 2003
On the road for christmas
Posted at 03:04 AM

like the past few days... this day's... normal.. and yet.. free from depression..somehow..

woke up at 3.. found out ate's here.. so i didn't used the pc..

didn't have a chance to reply to hon.. coz i can't use the pc.. and i can't borrow anyone's cell here..

went online at 6.. txt'ed hon.. apologized to her.. i guess she's mad coz of that..

then as usual.. we're talking to each other via txt..

while doing that, was as usual.. addicted to aa..

later hon called me.. we talked bout some things..

it makes me sad.. whenever she cries...i really don't want to see or hear her cry.. makes me shattered...

then later she went online, talked bout more lighter topics unlike on the topics we talked to on the phone...

she's still online now.. and i'm trying to make some sense into this post..

still no rants.. besides that thing...i'm light as a feather...

1 day till christmas...

i really don't care bout any material gifts because i got mine in advance...i got her in my life.. and i'm happy bout it

I Love You Elena...

"i'll do everything not to make her sad and cry..."



Ojamajo Doremi's Santa Claus Is Coming To Town






December 25, 2003
Baka desu ka....
Posted at 03:39 AM

hm... dunno what to say bout this day...

it was suppose to be good.. but all i can say is... bad timing

the people here woke me up at 11, was supposed to sleep afterwards but i can't.. and i'm basically home alone again for the short while...

dad went home after some time... and was online throughout the time..

hon went online earlier than expected..maybe because it's christmas eve...

we talk bout...you don't need to know..lol

the usual bbl and brb..

later... my mood changed coz of someone.... i wouldn't bother explaining everything...

thanks for ruining my christmas...

later i parked at waa for a while...gonna play ps supposedly but the dual shock's really broken... i watched tv instead..

when i went down, i saw hon.. she was waiting for me for almost 45 mins ago.. and i just received her txt after a few mins... stupid smart

then i greeted everyone, expecially hon...

then now i'm talking to her.. .

i'm here w/ my dad... my ate's at her work's party and my bro and mom's at my mom side

rant.. hm none... i don't want to say anything

besides that...stupidity... my christmas' good... and happy because of hon...

everything has a reason... and that reason is her...

she's my reason for everything... so i have lots of reason to be happy...

well anyway

to all the people:

merry christmas! joyeux noel! frohe Weihnachten! Buon Natale! christmas alegre! feliz navidad! ometedou kurisumasu! maligayang pasko!

i love you Elena...

message of the day:

"...how dare you?!?!"







December 26, 2003
The Return of the Quizes! Part 1! :-D
Posted at 03:54 AM

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December 26, 2003
Onegai Shimazu...
Posted at 04:18 AM

Return of the Quizzes! Part 2!

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today... hm i dunno..

woke up at 1, they woke me up.. went online..txt'ed hon.. and didn't received a reply...

basically i just took some quizzes... and other stuffs like aa, email etc...

hon went online in the afternoon... we didn't talked much as before... she's kinda busy....

as usual... the brb and bbl...

hm.. then later some stupid thing happened here in the house.. and i was kinda annoyed...

plus the fact that i see some annoying people...

was online and i did nothing much the whole day.. except eating...

anyway i'm still talking to hon..sorta.. gonna end this for now..

hm nothing to say..as always

i just hope my tomorrow's better...

whatever timezone you may be... i wanna say...

Merry Christmas

I Love You Elena...







December 29, 2003
Understanding some things...
Posted at 05:24 AM

hehe sorry if i missed posting in a couple of days...

anyway...this will be a 2 day post...

Saturday

due to some reasons, i only slept for 3 hours, woke at at 9, txt'ed hon asking if she's already awake.. then prepared to leave...

but i left home at more or less 12 due to some problems...

got there afer a few hours, found out that she's already there for about an hour.. hehe gomen ne hon..

then we went to one of her bestfriend's house to get some of her cd...

then after that, we walked to quiapo and decided to go to her twin's house....

although.. while on the jeep, she missed the exact place, so we decided to go to te recy's place, we also saw ingrid and bible

after a few minutes we went to mega.. on the fx she fell asleep, and rested on my shoulders... teehee

on mega we went to the foodcourt, but we didn't saw anybody, then we went to encore.. saw mike, leo, adz and other peeps

later some other peeps came... can't tell you all though sumimasen...

usual eb stuffs.. it was fun though... talked to adz bout some things...

later we went to benson's place... they were having their usual drinking session, but hon, me and adz just ate some noodles we bought...

later... we watched some dvds.. namely the grudge 1 and 2... the only thing i can say bout that movie is... what a stupid moron... lol

later we watched some eps of X 1999 the series...

after that, we resumed watching the grudge 2, but was dissapointed by it.. later me and hon fell asleep.. then benson told us to sleep upstairs...

Sunday

we went up... we didn't sleep yet.. i guess it's what they call namamahay

we talked bout some things.. bout my past and her past... hehe i'm glad we're open to each other...

later dawn came.. hehe usual jokes.. then we fell asleep...

later dawn came down.. we're still sleeping...

hm i guess we both have a wonderful sleep.. we woke up at 5pm

we went to leo's place to get hon's mp3 cd and to adz..then hinatid ko sya

got home at around 9, went online.. after a short while.. she went online...

talked bout things... glad on the things that i found out.. although i was sad on some things.. especially the reason that make her sad...

we're talking up to now

hm oh yeah.. returned to the basic layout again due to some problems.. gonna be back to my yugi layout soon.. and so does hon...

I Love You Elena...

music comes from the opening song of X 1999 series


Myuji's Ex Dream






December 30, 2003
Don't judge the book by its cover...
Posted at 04:34 AM

back to my normal ordinary day...

i woke up at around 2, txt'ed hon.. but she didn't replied...

got her txt hours later.. she's in the mall with her tita.. family day out...

hm i went online, then fixed this layout.. good thing adz was there... i got the things i needed, thanks adz

after that, watched tv, then basically nothing...

hon went online later.. and we talked bout some things..

i learned something from her, i dunno what to say, is fate playing a trick to us? why can't we just live in peace? bwah i should be down, deppressed and moody about that but i don't want to... i'm really ashamed to hon on the mood swing i have been going to, and i really don't want to become a burden to her... but still.. why? but i'm prepared come what may...

later, did some quiz thing bout myself.. if you want to try it out, the url is:

http://goks.friendtest.com

and took up a lot of test.. and the funny thing is that you learn what people know about you...

hm i only got 3rd on hon's test.. grrr ang tanga ko

Akito no Baka!!!

i never expected i get this low... and i'm supposed to know everything bout her.. stupid me...

oh well... i took some other waa chatters tests...

and now i'm still talking to her... she'll gonna leave later to the province...

she haven't left yet but... i already miss her...badly

I Love You so much Elena...







December 31, 2003
A Body Without a Soul
Posted at 03:24 AM

like the other days' it was sort of plain and normal...

i slept at around 8.. coz i talked to hon till then..

woke up at 2 coz mom woke me up..

went online at 3.. and stayed online till then..

hon went online..for a short while.. we didn't talked much.. but still..

she said goodbye later.. she'll return to the province for the new year...

while online, we're still talking via txt...

hm... i dunno.. i should be happy because i guess my moody-ness' gone.. but still

parang di na ako nasanay

i miss her badly.... i miss her so much...

I Love You Elena...

music comes from the 2nd ending theme of Yugioh Duel Monsters



Okui Masami's Ano hi no gogo






January 1, 2004
A new year, a new adventure!
Posted at 05:53 AM

even though it's a holiday, i find it somewhat ordinary..much like the other days.. although i can feel the sense of a new year, a different sense unlike in the year 2003..

woke up at around 3, went online at 4.. and basically did nothing.. stupid mouse keeps on acting strange...

txt'ed hon the whole day...

then the stupid electricity...a surprised brownout at quarter to 12... at the time of new year! grr

it went back online at 1, but i talked to hon on the phone first, we talked bout... special things.. hearing her voice's special to me..

after that, went back online and then did some bloghopping...

then when i was typing this, the electricity went out again, darn. fortunately i didn't type that long that time, and the electricity went back again...

a simple celebration, but well worth it..

the whole time.. i was talking to hon via txt.. teehee la lang..

oh yeah... i would like to greet all of my friends and those who usually visit this blog a...

Happy New Year! Akemashite Omedetou! Nouvelle Annee Heureuse! Gluckliches Neues Jahr! Nuovo Anno Felice! Ano Novo Feliz! Feliz Año Nuevo! Kung Hei Fat Choi! Manigong Bagong Taon!

i just hope this year's better compare to last year...

2004... here we come!

i miss her...

I Love You Elena


Scryed's Reckless Fire






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