Everything has a limit
Posted at 08:51 AM

what's w/ the title? ala lang... just a little... pissed... annoyed... kahit naman cguro ang pinaka mabait na tao eh naiinis din paminsan minsan dba? hm.. it's been a long time since i've been here... thanks to all the people who visited this blog... i really appreciate it that at least... there are still some people who knew i still exist...

anyway... hm.. where should i start... oh yeah

thanks to a chatter that is a friend of mine.. i heard there are some rumors going around the room (waa) about the reasons why i suddenly dissapeared in the online community...

and here are the rumors

i fled for love(nagtanan daw ako? ) - lol this is weird.. and honestly... i will if i had to and i want to and if i can.. but for now.. nope... unless i'm filthy rich... don't want my wife to die of hunger... i'm poor you know... so this is not true

i'm now married - what? lol just like the first.. go read the reason on the first rumor... same as above... and oh yeah.. if you don't want to believe me, go read or ask Hon...

i'm hiding 'coz i have some trouble to some people online or i'm afraid so i'm hiding - yeah right... being an ops for 3 years... i wouldn't do such a lame thing... not that i'm not afraid of everything... it is that i believe in a principle that once i'm right.. i'm right... and if you messed with me.. even if your the president of the philippines... you're going down! so... no this is not true either

my cable internet got disconnected - this is the lamest of them all... ok ok i'll clear it out here... destiny has a new management.. half of it at least... the merger of global cable and destiny cable.. so they're cutting cost... on our part.. we're the only cable internet on our place... and so they're being @$$#oles, they disabled our internet line... and they didn't even consider that we're a loyal subscriber for 3 yrs! so... i'm looking for new alternatives.. (dsl or even dial up for the meantime) but the thing is... the reason i went for cable is that.. we don't have a phoneline here... and pldt's being a pain in the @$$... so it may take a while... months at least before i have my internet access back... so this is a false... and to make a proof.. i still have their stinking cable modem...

there are still some other rumors... they're all false...

the only rumor that is true = my relationship with Elena's got better and better... :D

ok next... hm.. oh yeah... the what the hell happened to me in the past 3 weeks?

nothing much... somewhat busy... can't go online at school... daming tao

hon's visiting me at home most of the times... usual gametime etc... but besides that.. my life's boring without my only vice(bisyo) online

hon's getting closer and closer to my family... which is good... i guess they already accepted her as my other half (teehee)

so... kinda boring isn't it? lol yeah... sorta... although w/ hon... i don't think bout it too much

hm finally.. rants....

straight to the point.. i'm being angsty this past few days.. i guess it's because of the weather... i really hate summer!!!!

i'm annoyed at some people... you know who you are... if not... napakamanhid nyo! and.. i'm really sensitive this past few days...

i just red hon's post and the only thing that i can say... i'm not happy with it... ayokong nagiging kawawa mahal ko.. lalo na pag kinakawawa ng ibang tao... and i really don't like it when they blame her things... if you messed with her.. you messed with me...

much as i like writting your good ol' names here...i can't so i'll just put your codenames here...

an airhead monster, a bi+chy stick girl and a stupid moronic fanboy..

and some minor annoyance at some close people i know... haha simpleng tampo at inis sorry bout that.. but you may notice it.. my simple principle when i'm pissed off... ignoring people... so if i'm silent at you or i ignored you... beware.

hm... even here... napagiwanan na ako sa layout, my other half's got her new layout bout some series that i really can't relate (destiny doesn't have animax so sue them).. lol oh well... i'm planning on having a new layout when i got a chance.. akito layout :D. if only there's someone good enough to help me though... pity me

oh yeah.. special thanks to my lil sis.. even though we don't talk that much and we're busy at our personal lives.. i'm still glad to know you still know me :D and i owe you one...

hm... on the good side.. i'm still obssessed w/ kare kano, ai yori aoshi and now.. onegai sensei/ please teacher. wahahaha ala lang.. they have good stories (even though i've only seen a few onegai sensei ep and i haven't seen ai yori aoshi yet).

hm so that's about it... i'll add something if needed.. as for now... to all the close people i know personally and online.. i miss you folks!

i love you Elena

Dark Arima
Posted at 09:00 AM

lol looks like everyone reacted on my last post... different kinds of reaction... from questioning to violent reactions.. lol

first of all.. sorry if i did it below the belt.. but still... i prefer doing that than saying your actual names here... ayoko namang mamahiya ng tao, mapapahiya lang sila so.. there.. bato bato sa langit ang tamaan... sorry

hm anyway i guess i'll return to my usual habit.. ignoring people i don't like...

anyway how's my 3 days...?

nothing much...

friday, met up with hon then went to meet our rk daughter Lea. it was fun... ehehe

although... i learned something that made me shocked... i haven't felt that in my whole life... oh well...

saturday... hon went to my place at 4... then we went to the eb.. usual people... and talk to some of my close friends.. was somewhat happy that at least there are some true friends around...

sunday... i slept the whole day..lol...

hm rants... nothing much just a little confused at something.... although i still feel a little uneasiness...

i'll add something later...la ako maisip na sulatin dito...

i love you elena...

EDIT: haha i read some post of other people... and i'll make some things clear first...

(more here)

Ignorance is bliss...or so they say
Posted at 03:15 PM

haha... it's 8 days since last time i went online..

and nothing much happened to me.. besides super busy at school (damn profs) and of course.. Hon

hon's been visiting me at home most of the time..

and now i'm at a cafe... finishing some research.. and of course.. hon's here too

hm.. rants.. well..

i'm still thinking bout some things.. but i prefer not to write it here..

on the other side...

the issue's dead.. or so i think.. and just to clarify.. i did'nt said any bad word against any person.. except the codename.. besides that... nothing... i rarely cuss... and if you really know me.. you wouldn't say that... right?

and like i said... i'm not the one who started it all, i just pointed out my opinion.. we have a right to say it

although.. one fatal flaw.. not on me.. but on you guys... you're really unfair... yeah i know she's a friend/close to you.. but... lol.. i guess you only heard her part.. so what about ours? lol and you already judged us? haha pretty one sided isn't it? not that i'm gaining your support back.. i don't give a damn really...

so i guess... the issue's dead... so is i saw anything... that harms Elena.. you'll see the dark side of me... and it's not a threat.. it's a promise

anyway.. thanks to those who supported me and hon.. like siobe cherry, rollie, pavalli, bes leia etc... thanks guys!

anyway i think that's all...

I love you elena

au revoir e tous, jusqu'a ce que nous nous reunissions encore

Expecting the unexpected
Posted at 05:10 PM

howdy! i'm just here to read hon's post... after school i went straight to the cafe... i'm just concern i suppose anyway... nothing much to say... yesterday's a good day.. talked to hon as usual.. even though there are still some things that are bothering me.. i'm satisfied on where i am right now... although the cafe here stinks... can't get to dalnet and i can't save some files at my diskette.. they got a virus here i guess... bummer...

edit: changed cafes, i got some cash left so tambay muna ako sa dalnet for a while... i can access dalnet here but the cafe stinks.. and the people are unfriendly... bleah Oo;

besides that.. my day's good i guess...

anyway... like i said in my last post... thanks folks

i love you elena

au revoir!

Idio(ma)tic Expression
Posted at 06:41 PM

sunday.. and i'm here? hehe ala lang, my ate treated me so i'm here... so.. hmm..

what happened? hehe i dunno...

last week's busy as hell... clearance etc.. thursday.. met up with hon.. friday.. met with her again w/ her twin yoj and her sis (my hipag ) keesh...

saturday.... did something for my dad.. then sinundo si hon sa binondo hehe i missed that...

hm still having some problems.. but i guess... love conquers all

and for the reaction to some... "friendly" comments...

first of all... there's no such thing as a neutral side.. it's either.. you're with us.. or you're against us... and hello? you already chosen her side when you protected her... it doesn't make any sense if you protect someone yet you're not taking sides..

second... lol you missed your point again... you're not close with Elena.. you only known her for sometime.. but for me.. you know me for 2 years plus i think... we're both oldies or original chatters of weareanime.com talkcity... and yet.. dahil sa sinabi mo you still don't know me? haha... child... if you think i'm mad at that level.. wait till i'm really mad... di mo nga ako kilala i'm disapointed with you or rather... not that dissapointed.. unlike to another person that i'm really disapointed.. oh well

third... who said we want a war? no one.. but the fact that you entered someone's disputes... you should be ready for it...

yeah i admit the codenames are wrong but that's just it... you made your point and that's just it... if you're making a big deal out of it or you're putting some other issues.. haha.. just try...

anyway like hon said.. it's the end of it... i admitted my fault but i don't care if you want to admit your faults or not.. but this ends here... any more comments will be treated as a flame will be dealt with...

let's just pretend we don't know each other ok?

hm... problems problems... can't live with them.. can't live without them...

but that doesn't mean i'm not happy with my life... coz i am.. and isn't it obvious why?

I love you Elena

vous etes avec nous ou vous etes contre nous...

au revoir!

Edit: hon's online.. hm nothing much.. that's all...

No More Turning Back... It's Now or Never!
Posted at 09:40 PM

and i'm here again... just because of some emergency... for more info you can read hon's blog...

hm... nothing much happened to me... still having some problems.. plus hon's problems.. w/c i'm also involved... i really can't elaborate it here but the thing that i can say is.. please pray that we survived this ordeal... even though i'm an open catholic... and i thought finals are the worse test ever....

and thanks for the support me and hon's been receiving to some close friends... i can't thank you enough...

oh yeah.. this may be the last time i go online this week or maybe even this month... i'll really miss the folks who helped the both of us... i'll try to attend eb's though.. but i can't promise...

back to topic...

now the only thing we can do is to pass this test...

di ko lang makayanan na nahihirapan sya...

2004's a cruel year for me... except for hon... everything's bad... why? i really dunno...

i'm happy on what happened yet i'm sad because she's suffering...

but... i'll never leave her... kahit ikamatay ko pa i'll do everything...

i'm ready....

i'm sorry hon.. but still.. thanks... i don't know how to thank you...

i love you elena... with all of my life

"to prove my love... i'm ready to die..."

How is like to live in alcatraz?
Posted at 09:12 PM

hmm... what a long week...

it's the first time(or maybe second...) since naging kami na di kami nagkita for a whole one week.. plus... i don't have a load on my cell... dang.. the bad effect of a summer vacation...

hm...the worse week i had... and hon's having her problem as usual...

haha... stupid. no internet, no eb's etc.. i'm stuck at home doing nothing.. bleah

we almost had an arguement again coz of that... oh well my fault naman... kinda...

i miss her so much.. hm kinda strange though...when i go online.. she don't talk to me that much... i understand it though.. she's a good friend

hm... am i that useless?

err anyway... i'll make the first move...i'll do what it takes...

and i'll never give up...

oh yeah.. thanks to Monsieur for the advices...

i love you elena...

au revoir~!