Life Can Never be This...sucky
Posted at 11:02 AM

sorry for disappearing suddenly, actually... my unlimited account expired on june 2, but still... i was online this past 2 days...

so why didn't i post anything? i guess i kinda lost interest in posting rants here...sorry bout that

so why did i lost interest? hm...

let me tell you what happened to me this past few days...

the arguments stop...for some time... and i thought everything was back to normal.. till i heard something...

it seems... my heed for her friends... regarding the same old issue... was useless...

it seems that some of her close friends misinterpret me and now... i look like a villain to them... geez

well... i can't totally blame them, for judging me even before they know my side of the story...

not that i care what they think anyway

but the worse thing is that... they didn't had to pretend to be nice when they talk to me... lol in short... plastic

i really hate plastic people... isn't it obvious why?

the another thing i hate regarding that same people is that... ayoko ng pakialamero

i know they think i'm not suited for her.. but telling her that she made a bad choice in loving me is...really lame

blah... i guess maybe that's the reason i lost interest going online

now..i guess i'm back where i started this summer... deppression attack

honestly...we still had some arguments... but i guess.. it's either her fault...or it's just me...

maybe i should be numb instead? yung manhid para at least, i can't feel any pain...

and of course... even through all of the issues... i can't be mad at her... and i can't give up. love's heavier than that...

oh yeah.. we just had our 7th monthsary last june 6, we did meet... but it was short unfortunately...

to tell you honestly... i don't know how to solve any of this...

and the worst fact is... i can't stop thinking bout this...

hayyy

oh well... i guess this is all for the meantime... i shouldn't be posting right now anyway.. but i feel i should

au revoir

i love you elena...

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A Very Good Dream...
Posted at 08:19 PM

hm... too tired to post earlier.. so i guess you might call this a last minute post..or something...

this is about yesterday..if you didn't notice...

anyway...

hm...she called unexpectedly early in the morning (about 11:30am) well it was kinda early for me so there...

as i was saying... i woke up fortunately when the phone rang...

on the other line...was her... Elena.

she was asking if she could come here....and that if i could come with her to mega... she'll gonna meet mike and bea...

i said...yeah sure...

was about to wash up and prepare for that... i fell asleep

she came at about 2pm i guess...she caught me still sleeping... eep

anyway...hmm.. after washing and changing clothes... we started talking bout... the important issues regarding the both of us...

and..well... the usual gf/bf bonding

we finished all of that by about 4... went to mega at about 5...and we looked for them...

but unfortunately they left before we even came....

we went back home after that...and then we went online...

she talked to her friends...and we also talked to the genei peeps... especially Cherry and daughter Averil

and she searched for some infos bout seiyuus...

we left here about 9... hinatid ko pauwi

and i got back home at around quarter to 12...

went back online... my other online daughter Julie called..and then Hon called..at about 1:30 i think...

the day wemt good..even though there are some things that are still bothering me...it's still like a very good dream.. a dream that i don't want to end...and i don't want to wake up!

later then... au revoir!

I Love You Elena

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