it's cold, it's dark, it's cursed...


It all starts without warning, a loved one or trusted authority thrusts a sharp dagger slicing deep into the child's innocent heart shattering its safe world of love with betrayal. A reflex pulls the heart away as the first painful emotion brings a fear of death and insecurity. Stunned in disbelief the child's mind scrambles to make sense of the puncture the heart has just sustained. Confused and unable to comprehend the assault, the child accepts full responsibility. Year after year the pattern continues, as trust becomes a distant memory.

Deep within solitude and far from discovery the mirror of the buried heart reflects failure and loneliness. The mind caught off guard responds with a legion of proof the inner voice is a lie. As time passes and silent to all others, the heart's once small whisper increases to a scream the mind can not suppress. Plunging into a darkness of conviction and despair a knowing of the failure permeates the body. Shocked by the inner betrayal, a rage is created that will not relent. Over and over you seek for the one to blame, but none can be found. Through desperate fear the mind has the solution. You are the one to blame.

The now silent heart slowly dies unaware of its gradual fate as despair trickles into the cold voids where the dream once lived. Day after day the darkness kills thoughts before they transform into action bringing a paralysis to life. Moving deeper and deeper into hopelessness, the childhood dream no longer exists. Replaced with a cold hatred that the song of lies was ever heard. Death is the only escape and love is a lie.

they are just waiting for me to die...


Entries for October, 2007

October 15, 2007
I'm not as dark as you think anymore..
Posted at 08:01 AM

buhay na ko.. actually,, i'm akito's girlfriend.. pinabukas niya saken to and sabi niya magpost lng daw ako ng gusto ko kaya eto..

 

he's not as dark as what he was before.. He's a better person now.. he's never been happy.. pano ko alm?.. i know him that much.. We've been together for more than 2 years so i think i know a lot about my future husband.. ☺

 

kaya ngayon,, ignore all his darkest posts here kasi all happy posts na ang gagawin nmen together.. we'll now share this account..

I just wanna say something sa mga epal na ex ni akito:

I hate you all! lalo ka na!(you know who you are!)

dahil you are the friekin reason kung baket naging sobrang gloomy ang buhay niya after you left him.. by the way, he wasn't sad because he missed you, he was sad because you didn't return his anime stuffs!!

Ngayon, sobrang sya n nya dahil wala kn! haha!

 

sorry for this kinds of language that  i used.. naiinis lng ako pag naalala ko ung gnawa niya kay akito bago kmi magkakilala..  

 

by the way. papakilala nga pla ko,. I'm jek.. future wife ni akito,(gokou)..☺I'm not really into anime and techie stuffs or whatever,,(hindi talga ko marunong ng HTML!! hahah) ako ay isang simpleng tutor lamang.. ^_^

thanks for reading this.. if you wanna say something, just  make a comment..

 

nga pla, malapit na bday namen! hehe bukas na! magkabday kc kmi! galing talaga! ^_^ 







This is a stickied, favorite post.October 18, 2007
bad mood ako
Posted at 06:37 PM

i'm sick.. i was really feeling sick yesterday so i didn't go to work.. and today, i went to work already kasi wala na kong sasahurin pag hindi pa ko pumasok..

sa totoo lang, ayoko talagang pumasok na! never again! kasi wala nmng kwenta mga tao d2.. i mean, walng pakisama.. lalong lalo na ung pinaka boss! they're just thinking bout their own welfare.. bahala na kung mamatay sa kakatrabaho ung mga tauhan nila d2! walang paki alam sa health nmen.. lalo na ako! nararamdaman ko nmn na sobrang baba ung tinigin nila saken d2 eh.. unang una, nung birthday ko, binilan nga ako ng cake, pero hiondi nm lumabas o napakita man lang ang magasawang may-ari ng kumpanyang ito. eh usually they sing happy birthday songs together with us pag birthday ng ibang teachers.. dun palng halata na!

dati pa kasi ko nagresign d2 pero sabi niya!, hindi daw pwede.. palibhasa wala akong kibo kaya ginagago lng ako.. ako nmn nagpapagago din! tapos ngayong araw na to, pumasok ako khit npaka bigat ng katawan ko at pinapawisan p ko ng malamig eh hindi man lang naapreciate ng isang tao d2 at sinabihan pa ko sa friendster na,,"bigla akong tinrankaso at bigal din nawala!" grabe! galing noh? hindi man lang naapreciate ung effort ko sa pagpasok!

gusto ko talaga umalis d2 pero sabi ni akito, wag daw bigla bigla.. kaya kumukuha pa ko ng tiyempo.. biruin niyo, kung mamatay pala ko on the spot d2, wala clang magagawa dahil unang una, walang SSS, walng philhealth at walang tax! isumbong ko kaya to sa DOLE! punyeta!

naasar talaga ko!  

by:--jek-- 







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