it's cold, it's dark, it's cursed...
It all starts without warning, a loved one or trusted authority thrusts a sharp dagger slicing deep into the child's innocent heart shattering its safe world of love with betrayal. A reflex pulls the heart away as the first painful emotion brings a fear of death and insecurity. Stunned in disbelief the child's mind scrambles to make sense of the puncture the heart has just sustained. Confused and unable to comprehend the assault, the child accepts full responsibility. Year after year the pattern continues, as trust becomes a distant memory.
Deep within solitude and far from discovery the mirror of the buried heart reflects failure and loneliness. The mind caught off guard responds with a legion of proof the inner voice is a lie. As time passes and silent to all others, the heart's once small whisper increases to a scream the mind can not suppress. Plunging into a darkness of conviction and despair a knowing of the failure permeates the body. Shocked by the inner betrayal, a rage is created that will not relent. Over and over you seek for the one to blame, but none can be found. Through desperate fear the mind has the solution. You are the one to blame.
The now silent heart slowly dies unaware of its gradual fate as despair trickles into the cold voids where the dream once lived. Day after day the darkness kills thoughts before they transform into action bringing a paralysis to life. Moving deeper and deeper into hopelessness, the childhood dream no longer exists. Replaced with a cold hatred that the song of lies was ever heard. Death is the only escape and love is a lie.
they are just waiting for me to die...
Recent links
- Tere December 10th, 2003 - tita tere\'s blog
- Ingrid November 30th, 2003 - Hazuki\'s blog
- Te Recy November 30th, 2003 - Yaone\'s Blog :-)
- Princess Anne November 28th, 2003 - blogeh of princess anne of weare :P
- Benjo November 22nd, 2003 - benjo\'s blog
- Sammi-chan November 19th, 2003 - blog of kawaii sumomo-chan :-D
- Adz November 13th, 2003 - blog of shi-chaaan!
- Ruby October 23rd, 2003 - ruby\'s blog :)
- Junie October 22nd, 2003 - my new daughter\'s blogeh :-)
- Kat October 22nd, 2003 - blog of the kirei kaitou :P
- Mike October 22nd, 2003 - blog of the bishie mike! :-D
- Angel Salvia October 22nd, 2003 - tabulas blog of anna!
- WeAreAnime.Dal.Net October 22nd, 2003 - site of #weareanime dalnet
- Karen October 22nd, 2003 - blog of kirei nenloth :-D
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- Angel Ana October 22nd, 2003 - blog of the ever kawaii angel of waa, Ana! :-D
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- Bro Rets October 22nd, 2003 - blog of my bishie oniichan :-D
- Bes Leia October 22nd, 2003 - my bestfriend Leia\'s blog :-)
- Cherry October 23rd, 2003 - Blog of Kirei lanfan hime-sama! *bows
- Deacon December 1st, 2003 - the blog of the bishie god and found of #waa chatroom in dalnet, deacon! :-D
- Hunter x Hunter Elite RPG October 22nd, 2003 - HxH Elite group on yahoo, w/ an ongoing post series/manga rpg
